personal,
meaning IN PERSON:
possibly
the truest way to meet.
everything else
is even more filled
with PROJECTION.
seemingly / seamlessly
GIVING AWAY
all of the self
but in reality
keeping the essence
DISTANT.
what is
UNDERSTOOD
from any piece of work
has more to do with
HOW IT IS READ,
than with
HOW IT IS WRITTEN.
what does that
tell you about yourself.
what are you
PROJECTING + WHY
do you have to
see that right now.
.
.
music: September Song
by Patricia Kaas
.
CONSISTENCY
as an aspect
of quality in itself.
OH,
I like the aesthetics
of that.
.
all had been given,
nothing expected
.
+ YET
everything was there.
.
music: Up In the Sky
by 77 Bombay Street
.
here’s another
ORDINARY DAY
of importance,
on which everything
is coming together
to fall into place.
THANKS.
we are capable
of MORE than
we think we are.
EVERY SINGLE
one of us.
us PEOPLE.
have faith in
yourself + other cheesiness
of empowering phrases.
THANKS.
ALSO:
dear randomness,
hug me tight.
I love you.
.
music: I Walk the Line
by The Everly Brothers
.
we went forwards,
but thought backwards.
+ thus LOST track.
SUNDAYS
are not anymore
what they
never have been.
OH DEAR,
where’s your sanity.
DEAR ME,
it’s in the kitchen
I believe.
NOW THAT makes
plenty of sense,
PLENTY.
plenus, plena, plenum.
plain de.
voll wie sinnvoll
/ voll wie JA, VOLL.
MOMOLL.
da schliesst sich der kreis.
there the circle closes itself.
we have gone nowhere
+ YET SO FAR.
JULIA, is that a metaphor
for life.
OF COURSE.
I couldn’t be more obvious,
COULD I.
.
music: Maintain the Madness
by The Jane Austen Argument
.
he told me
about learning
FRENCH.
.
+ then
he told me about
VENICE.
.
not many people
seemed to ever
LISTEN to him.
not many people
seemed to notice
him AT ALL.
/ consider him
A THINKING BEING.
.
+ so,
he stayed in the
SHADOWS
of the art works
he was guarding.
.
music: Mr. Cellophane
by Larry Dale Sowell
.
NO ONE
will ever move
exactly the way
YOU DO. + there
lies beauty
within that
UNIQUENESS.
.
CAN WE
take a moment
to let that sink in.
+ ACKNOWLEDGE
our individual beauty.
.
ALSO:
who decides
what movement
should look like.
.
EP walked
the floors of her realms
again + found his way
STRAIGHT TO THE
core of her heart.
.
THERE you are.
.
you were
ALWAYS
ON MY MIND.
.
are you lonesome
tonight.
DO YOU MISS ME
tonight.
are you sorry
we drifted
APART.
.
music: Can't Help Falling
In Love (Acoustic Cover)
by Chase Eagleson
.
sometimes
THE MAGIC is buried
deep within people.
+ you can’t see it.
YET, it is there.
DIG DEEP.
unleash that spark.
(OH, cheesiness).
+ YES,
it might be
UNCOMFORTABLE
to get there.
sometimes
I lose track of
WHERE I AM.
with myself.
with the world.
with all of you.
all of you.
all of me.
all of this.
IS THIS REAL.
.
music: Into the Abyss
by Jackson Mullane
.
I FORGOT
how to believe
in love at first sight.
LIFT ME UP
from the cold ground
+ embrace me with
the warmth of your light.
but anyways,
that’s not the point,
IS IT.
autumn came.
others did the same.
I MEAN, HEY.
why wouldn’t they.
but anyways,
that’s not the point,
IS IT.
someone might have
taken the point.
WHICH IS FINE,
you know.
sharing is caring
+
OTHER HASHTAGS.
.
music: Into the Abyss
by Jackson Mullane
.
the body
might be
THE MOST
honest mirror
one will ever
LOOK INTO.
if you do
look into it.
WHERE AM I
closing my eyes
from seeing
the truth.
the world is more
than you see of it.
SO IS
YOUR BODY.
.
.
my intuitive reaction
would have been
to CLOSE THE GATES.
which of course
is just a time-out,
not a solution
PER SE.
except for
if closing the gates
was a metaphor for
RUNNING AWAY
(which it isn’t).
ALTHOUGH
that could
merely
be called
a part-time
solution.
what about
DISSOLUTION
then.
I’ll take that.
THANK YOU.
ALSO:
do I have to
justify my existence.
.
music: Save Me
by Aimee Mann
.
with many things
of the past
I WONDER,
whether I will ever
do them again.
WHAT IF NOT.
.
+somewhat
that very hug
stayed with her.
.
+maybe
because it was
ONE OF A KIND.
.
music: Wolf Like Me (feat. Shovels & Rope)
by Lera Lynn
.
IN MY HEAD
we’ve had that
conversation
many times.
IN MY HEAD
I’ve written you
all of it + explained
myself.
IN MY HEAD
you know exactly
where I am + what
I’m at.
IN MY HEAD.
…
wosi gangenisch,
hends die meischte ned
TSCHEGGT + sogar hüt,
vell schpöter, immer no
s GFÜHL, dassie neumeds
ganz anderscht isch
als det wosi isch.
okeii,
es isch au chlines durenand,
ich chume sälber ganz durenand.
DU-RE-NAND.
#schtorieofmeileif
WAS WETSCH ODER.
.
music: W. Nuss vo Bümpliz
by Patent Ochsner
.
she felt herself
HANGING
when she furiously
stepped her feet
to the ground.
.
TO BE
easily dropped.
TO BE
turned away from.
TO BE
left hanging.
THERE
in that space.
.
DON’T GET ME
wrong.
I would probably
have done the same.
.
sometimes
I don’t know
what I’m doing,
but I do it
ANYWAYS.
.
PICTURE:
a domestic still.
.
music: Staying Single
by The Jane Austen Argument
.
PICK ME UP
when I fall.
CATCH ME
when I run away.
SLAP ME
when I kiss you.
WATER ME
when I’m a tree.
HOLD ONTO ME
when I’m pulled away.
.
PINA was sitting close,
when the women
dropped the stones.
.
their bodies were soft,
perceptive + YET
distinctive in their expression.
SMILES WERE REAL.
the stories
they were telling
were their own.
.
everybody in the room
WAS THERE.
.
apparently
I didn’t want to be
in the picture
this very early morning.
.
music: Lass mal ne Nacht drüber Tanzen
by Julia Engelmann
.
the RACING MIND
was not of any service,
neither was I,
trying to follow it.
…
‘OK, keep doing that,
if you think it’s FUNNY’,
+ I turned my back
towards it,
starting to walk into
ANY RANDOM direction.
…
the mind,
YOU SEE,
is an attention whore.
the moment
I turned away from it,
it COLLAPSED
to the floor
in exhaustion
+ fell
ASLEEP.
…
I picked it up
CAREFULLY
+ we could
finally go home.
.
music: Where Is My Mind
by Puddles Pity Party
.
as ALL I TAKE IN
informs my state,
the choice is
MINE to make.
.
MOST of the time.
SOME times.
HARDLY any time.
.
to which extent
is what I take in
informing the state
of my environment,
WHICH
I am informing.
.
how DO WE DEAL
with this now.
.
music: Anti Love Song
by Betty Davis
.
if ANYTHING,
the familiarity of
YOUR TEXTING
was comforting.
+ as I thought about you
my MIND made
a connection to the songs
I was listening to.
+ NOW
those songs will always
remind me of
thinking about you.
…
when I was doing
everything I could
+ it wasn’t enough,
I HAD ENOUGH.
such a human thing
to write.
let’s call it a humanism.
which makes me a humanist
/ what
QUESTION MARK
+ EXCLAMATION MARK.
all marked out.
+ other markeding.
(MARK, das ding.
sorry MARK,
if you are reading this.)
…
OH DEAR JULIA.
she looked at herself
with an expression
that clearly reflected
the INSANITY
she saw in her own eyes.
.
.
if any movement
CAN BE DANCE.
if any sound
CAN BE MUSIC.
any idea
CAN BE ART.
CAN, but doesn’t
have to.
.
CANCAN + other forms.
.
it wasn’t anymore
what it had never been.
EVERYTHING I mean.
seemed like a distant
dream, IN FACT.
+ I tend to make those
more than they ever were.
.
IF WE COULD ALL just
cut the shit + say
what we mean,
ME INCLUDED.
thank you
very much.
.
verusse schtürmts
+ DINNE AU.
.
+ please, instagram me
to the depth of your ability.
= INSTABILITY.
.
.
POSSIBLY
I am full of
IRRATIONALITY.
.
+if so: why not.
.
as the body clears up
the mind does so,
TOO.
+sometimes
I need that to be
a slow-motion
PROCESS.
.
don’t worry, BOY.
it will WORK out
just FINE.
+BOY, did he worry.
however,
FINE WORK
was made.
.
music: Regaschirm
by Sandro Dietrich
.
