19.10.19

personal, 

meaning IN PERSON: 

possibly 

the truest way to meet. 

 

everything else 

is even more filled 

with PROJECTION. 

 

seemingly / seamlessly 

GIVING AWAY 

all of the self 

but in reality 

keeping the essence 

DISTANT.

 

what is 

UNDERSTOOD 

from any piece of work 

has more to do with 

HOW IT IS READ, 

than with 

HOW IT IS WRITTEN. 

 

what does that 

tell you about yourself. 

 

what are you 

PROJECTING + WHY 

do you have to 

see that right now.

.

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music: September Song

by Patricia Kaas

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17.10.19

here’s another 

ORDINARY DAY

of importance, 

on which everything 

is coming together 

to fall into place. 

THANKS. 

 

we are capable 

of MORE than 

we think we are. 

 

EVERY SINGLE 

one of us. 

 

us PEOPLE. 

 

have faith in 

yourself + other cheesiness 

of empowering phrases. 

 

THANKS.

 

ALSO:

dear randomness,

hug me tight.

I love you.

 

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music: I Walk the Line

by The Everly Brothers

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16.10.19

we went forwards, 

but thought backwards.

 

+ thus LOST track. 

 

SUNDAYS 

are not anymore 

what they 

never have been. 

 

OH DEAR, 

where’s your sanity. 

DEAR ME, 

it’s in the kitchen 

I believe. 

 

NOW THAT makes 

plenty of sense, 

PLENTY. 

 

plenus, plena, plenum. 

plain de. 

voll wie sinnvoll 

/ voll wie JA, VOLL.

MOMOLL. 

 

da schliesst sich der kreis. 

there the circle closes itself. 

 

we have gone nowhere

 

+ YET SO FAR. 

 

JULIA, is that a metaphor 

for life. 

OF COURSE. 

I couldn’t be more obvious, 

COULD I.

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music: Maintain the Madness

by The Jane Austen Argument

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15.10.19

he told me 

about learning 

FRENCH. 

.

+ then 

he told me about 

VENICE. 

.

not many people 

seemed to ever 

LISTEN to him. 

not many people 

seemed to notice 

him AT ALL. 

 

/ consider him 

A THINKING BEING. 

.

+ so, 

he stayed in the 

SHADOWS

of the art works 

he was guarding. 

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music: Mr. Cellophane

by Larry Dale Sowell

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13.10.19

EP walked 

the floors of her realms 

again + found his way 

STRAIGHT TO THE 

core of her heart. 

.

THERE you are.

.

you were 

ALWAYS 

ON MY MIND.

are you lonesome 

tonight.

DO YOU MISS ME

tonight.

are you sorry

we drifted

APART.

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music: Can't Help Falling 

In Love (Acoustic Cover)

by Chase Eagleson

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12.10.19

sometimes 

THE MAGIC is buried 

deep within people.

+ you can’t see it.

 

YET, it is there.

 

DIG DEEP.

unleash that spark.

(OH, cheesiness).

 

+ YES, 

it might be 

UNCOMFORTABLE

to get there.

 

sometimes 

I lose track of 

WHERE I AM.

 

with myself.

with the world.

with all of you.

 

all of you.

all of me.

all of this.

 

IS THIS REAL. 

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music: Into the Abyss

by Jackson Mullane

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11.10.19

I FORGOT 

how to believe 

in love at first sight.

 

LIFT ME UP

from the cold ground 

+ embrace me with 

the warmth of your light.

 

but anyways, 

that’s not the point, 

IS IT.

 

autumn came.

others did the same.

I MEAN, HEY.

why wouldn’t they.

 

but anyways, 

that’s not the point, 

IS IT.

 

someone might have 

taken the point.

WHICH IS FINE, 

you know. 

sharing is caring 

OTHER HASHTAGS.

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music: Into the Abyss

by Jackson Mullane

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9.10.19

my intuitive reaction 

would have been 

to CLOSE THE GATES.

 

which of course 

is just a time-out, 

not a solution 

PER SE.

 

except for 

if closing the gates 

was a metaphor for 

RUNNING AWAY

(which it isn’t).

 

ALTHOUGH

that could 

merely 

be called 

a part-time 

solution.

 

what about 

DISSOLUTION 

then.

I’ll take that.

THANK YOU.

 

ALSO: 

do I have to 

justify my existence.

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music: Save Me

by Aimee Mann

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7.10.19

IN MY HEAD

we’ve had that 

conversation 

many times.

 

IN MY HEAD

I’ve written you 

all of it + explained 

myself.

 

IN MY HEAD

you know exactly 

where I am + what 

I’m at.

 

IN MY HEAD.

 

 

wosi gangenisch, 

hends die meischte ned 

TSCHEGGT + sogar hüt, 

vell schpöter, immer no 

s GFÜHL, dassie neumeds 

ganz anderscht isch 

als det wosi isch. 

okeii, 

es isch au chlines durenand, 

ich chume sälber ganz durenand. 

DU-RE-NAND. 

#schtorieofmeileif 

WAS WETSCH ODER. 

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music: W. Nuss vo Bümpliz

by Patent Ochsner

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6.10.19

she felt herself 

HANGING 

when she furiously 

stepped her feet 

to the ground.

.

TO BE 

easily dropped.

TO BE 

turned away from.

TO BE 

left hanging.

THERE

in that space.

.

DON’T GET ME

 

wrong. 

 

I would probably 

have done the same.

.

sometimes

I don’t know 

what I’m doing, 

but I do it 

ANYWAYS.

.

PICTURE:

a domestic still.

.

music: Staying Single

by The Jane Austen Argument

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5.10.19

PICK ME UP 

when I fall.

 

CATCH ME 

when I run away.

 

SLAP ME 

when I kiss you.

 

WATER ME 

when I’m a tree.

 

HOLD ONTO ME 

when I’m pulled away.

.

PINA was sitting close, 

when the women 

dropped the stones.

.

their bodies were soft, 

perceptive + YET 

distinctive in their expression.

 

SMILES WERE REAL.

 

the stories 

they were telling 

were their own.

.

everybody in the room 

WAS THERE.

.

 

apparently 

I didn’t want to be 

in the picture 

this very early morning. 

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music: Lass mal ne Nacht drüber Tanzen

by Julia Engelmann

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4.10.19

the RACING MIND

was not of any service, 

neither was I, 

trying to follow it. 

‘OK, keep doing that, 

if you think it’s FUNNY’,

 

+ I turned my back 

towards it, 

starting to walk into 

ANY RANDOM direction. 

 

the mind, 

YOU SEE, 

is an attention whore. 

 

the moment 

I turned away from it, 

it COLLAPSED 

to the floor 

in exhaustion 

+ fell 

ASLEEP. 

 

I picked it up 

CAREFULLY 

+ we could 

finally go home.

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music: Where Is My Mind

by Puddles Pity Party 

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3.10.19

as ALL I TAKE IN 

informs my state, 

the choice is 

MINE to make.

.

MOST of the time.

SOME times.

HARDLY any time.

.

to which extent 

is what I take in 

informing the state 

of my environment, 

WHICH

I am informing.

how DO WE DEAL 

with this now. 

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music: Anti Love Song

by Betty Davis

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2.10.19

if ANYTHING, 

the familiarity of 

YOUR TEXTING

was comforting. 

 

+ as I thought about you 

my MIND made 

a connection to the songs 

I was listening to. 

 

+ NOW

those songs will always 

remind me of 

thinking about you.

when I was doing 

everything I could 

+ it wasn’t enough, 

I HAD ENOUGH. 

 

such a human thing 

to write. 

let’s call it a humanism. 

which makes me a humanist 

/ what 

QUESTION MARK 

+ EXCLAMATION MARK. 

all marked out. 

+ other markeding. 

(MARK, das ding. 

sorry MARK,

if you are reading this.)

OH DEAR JULIA. 

she looked at herself 

with an expression 

that clearly reflected 

the INSANITY

she saw in her own eyes.

.

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1.10.19

if any movement 

CAN BE DANCE. 

if any sound 

CAN BE MUSIC. 

any idea 

CAN BE ART.

 

CAN, but doesn’t 

have to. 

.

CANCAN + other forms.

.

it wasn’t anymore 

what it had never been. 

EVERYTHING I mean. 

seemed like a distant 

dream, IN FACT. 

+ I tend to make those 

more than they ever were.

.

IF WE COULD ALL just 

cut the shit + say 

what we mean,

ME INCLUDED. 

thank you 

very much.

verusse schtürmts 

+ DINNE AU.

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+ please, instagram me 

to the depth of your ability. 

= INSTABILITY.

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30.9.19

POSSIBLY 

I am full of 

IRRATIONALITY. 

.

+if so: why not.

.

 

as the body clears up 

the mind does so, 

TOO. 

 

+sometimes 

I need that to be 

a slow-motion 

PROCESS.

.

 

don’t worry, BOY. 

it will WORK out 

just FINE. 

 

+BOY, did he worry. 

however, 

FINE WORK 

was made.

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music: Regaschirm 

by Sandro Dietrich

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