the slim tall figure
slipped in through
a hidden backdoor.
I didn’t have
THE STRENGTH
to stop her.
here we were
AGAIN.
the cigarette
she smoked smelled
STALE + COLD.
.
+ the music,
YOU KNOW,
THE MUSIC,
it has this
carrying effect at times,
when nothing else
is there to carry me
THROUGH A STAGE.
.
music: Lost
by Ash
.
what she didn’t
expect to happen
during
ALL OF THIS TIME.
did happen still.
POSSIBLY
because she
didn’t have
clear expectations
PER SE.
which could be a
better plan for life
than any plan.
DIRECTIONS though,
DIRECTIONS she had.
as she followed
the pathways
LAID OUT
in front of her,
did the work
ASSIGNED
to her + on herself,
SHE FOUND HERSELF
able to respond
to what life
proposed.
she + life,
they started to
get on.
.
music: Wicked Game
by Tula
.
all
GENERATIONS
you’re related to
might be affected
by what you leave
UNRESOLVED.
DIRECTLY.
where am I solving
WHAT ISN’T MINE
to solve.
where
do I need to take
RESPONSIBILITY
of what is mine
to solve + how
can I do so.
how am I
PROCESSING.
what do I
need to do.
HELP YOURSELF.
.
music: Waiting for Tomorrow
by 77 Bombay Street
.
the smallest
DEEPENING
of letting go
allows the body
to listen
ATTENTIVELY
on a cellular level
+ ADJUST
accordingly.
MAYBE
the physical memory
is more reliable
than the other one.
.
it was a day
OF POTENTIAL
for collective healing.
if only we’d recognize
that healing is
A COLLECTIVE
MATTER
of all people.
that these
KIND OF DAYS
could still withhold
that power.
.
what does prayer
MEAN TO YOU.
excellent question
elena brower.
.
music: One of Us
by Martyn Joseph
.
recognizing
opportunity + acting
UPON IT,
when you do so.
like the word
PRONTO,
which means
what it sounds like.
NEVER
underestimate
RANDOMNESS,
it could be
camouflaged intuition.
/ it could be
randomness
PER SE +
that’s valid.
.
music: No Surprises
by Amanda Palmer
.
SOMETIMES
it is better
to let go
of the urge
TO DEFINE
situations.
as it leaves
SPACE
for taking any
direction / none
AT ALL.
.
music: Maria
by River Tiber
.
SHE SAID
random things
out of context.
MAYBE
he understood,
maybe not.
HOW ON EARTH
could she have
explained all of
where she was
COMING FROM.
.
harry potter
was there.
little francesco
was there.
they shared
a language
OF GRACE,
refined in its details,
work to be lost in.
.
hesch du de räscht
vo de abschtimmlischte
a d wand ghänkt.
EH JA,
SÄULIPINK
isch immer guet,
SÄULIPINK.
wenni en idee han,
RISSI
en zäddel ab + schriib
sie druf.
GSCHIID ODR.
.
.
music: Harry Potter Theme
by Eiro Nareth
.
only years later
do I understand
the value
OF THE WISH
for you to come
into my life.
A BOND,
which nourishes me
from the core
of my heart.
over any
distance,
HOWEVER
FAR APART.
.
music: Simply The Best
by soYmartino
.
knots unresolved
will keep
getting in the way
of taking off,
LIFE SAID.
.
to solve a knot,
it is best to find
the beginnings + endings
OF THE THREADS
in question.
.
to understand how
their trails are
INTERTWINED.
.
where it is crucial
to loosen up
in order to
RESOLVE.
.
now how do you
APPLY THAT.
.
music: I'm a Stone
by River Tiber
.
+ THEN
that was
THAT.
I mean,
why not.
RIGHT.
.
+ NO, BRO,
I hadn’t had
it coming,
don’t you
look at me
LIKE THAT.
.
+ all of the
BROTHERS
were laughing
to themselves
OUT LOUD.
come on,
give me
the jokes.
.
.
the body
KNOWS ALL
I’ve lived through.
the body
speaks the truth
my mind is hiding.
the body
remembers all
OF LIFE + BEYOND
its limits.
the body
knows who is
a potential friend.
the body
knows where I
come alive in my
FULLEST EXPRESSION.
the body
hears the
EARLY CRACKING
of a breaking heart.
the body
KNOWS ALL
of the thoughts.
the body
knows what is hidden
beneath the surface.
THE BODY.
.
music: My Amazing Body
by Radha
.
he saw that
LITTLE GIRL
in this huge room
sitting on her yoga mat
.
+ it seemed like
the only place
she’d ever
FELT SAFE.
which makes sense,
DOESEN’T IT.
I mean,
your space is quite
CLEARLY MARKED
as a one-person-spot
when you’re on your mat.
nobody is going to
squeeze in next to you
on a mat + ‘oh excuse me’
UNINTENTIONALLY
but not so unintentionally
touch you.
.
he didn’t dare to ask
all those questions.
.
+ SO
he just left
that very early morning
in what must have been
june twothousandeighteen.
.
music: Totemügerli goes online
by Lo & Leduc
.
the EXHAUSTION
reflected on her face
was real.
.
+ what about that pain,
YES, what about the pain.
.
it was the era
of stress reaction
having so many causes,
that it got stressful
TO THINK
ABOUT LIVING.
.
THE PLANET
is stressed.
THE GUT
is stressed.
PEOPLE
are stressed.
is stress going to kill us.
EVENTUALLY, YES.
.
+ if not,
sth else will.
let’s not fool
ourselves here,
SHALL WE.
.
music: On n'a qu'une terre
by Stress
.
SOMETIMES
I have to believe
in magic,
I believe.
.
+ SOMETIMES
I have to do
the magic
myself.
.
just to get
THAT SPARK
back on.
.
with myself.
with people.
with life.
.
YOU KNOW.
.
it is probably for the better,
that my current piano
doesn’t make any sound.
.
+ SUDDENLY
you felt so close,
I could almost
SMELL YOU.
even though
it’s been months
since we’ve seen
EACH OTHER.
…
she had no clue
of what she was doing,
SHE DIDN’T KNOW
where all of it came
from.
HOWEVER,
it seemed to work.
SO WTF.
…
.
music: Online
by Lo & Leduc
.
to feel alone
AMONGST PEOPLE
is almost worse
than to feel alone
being alone.
ISN’T IT.
.
+ then
to understand
why one feels
SEPARATED.
.
+ to accept
the human nature of it
/ ONE’S human nature.
.
music: People
by Richard There
.
personal,
meaning IN PERSON:
possibly
the truest way to meet.
everything else
is even more filled
with PROJECTION.
seemingly / seamlessly
GIVING AWAY
all of the self
but in reality
keeping the essence
DISTANT.
what is
UNDERSTOOD
from any piece of work
has more to do with
HOW IT IS READ,
than with
HOW IT IS WRITTEN.
what does that
tell you about yourself.
what are you
PROJECTING + WHY
do you have to
see that right now.
.
.
music: September Song
by Patricia Kaas
.
CONSISTENCY
as an aspect
of quality in itself.
OH,
I like the aesthetics
of that.
.
all had been given,
nothing expected
.
+ YET
everything was there.
.
music: Up In the Sky
by 77 Bombay Street
.
here’s another
ORDINARY DAY
of importance,
on which everything
is coming together
to fall into place.
THANKS.
we are capable
of MORE than
we think we are.
EVERY SINGLE
one of us.
us PEOPLE.
have faith in
yourself + other cheesiness
of empowering phrases.
THANKS.
ALSO:
dear randomness,
hug me tight.
I love you.
.
music: I Walk the Line
by The Everly Brothers
.
we went forwards,
but thought backwards.
+ thus LOST track.
SUNDAYS
are not anymore
what they
never have been.
OH DEAR,
where’s your sanity.
DEAR ME,
it’s in the kitchen
I believe.
NOW THAT makes
plenty of sense,
PLENTY.
plenus, plena, plenum.
plain de.
voll wie sinnvoll
/ voll wie JA, VOLL.
MOMOLL.
da schliesst sich der kreis.
there the circle closes itself.
we have gone nowhere
+ YET SO FAR.
JULIA, is that a metaphor
for life.
OF COURSE.
I couldn’t be more obvious,
COULD I.
.
music: Maintain the Madness
by The Jane Austen Argument
.
