21.3.20

I took 

YOUR HUG 

with me 

like a treasure 

 

BURIED 

in the memory 

of my cells. 

 

where are 

you (at). 

 

ARE WE STILL 

HERE. 

is this really 

happening. 

 

plenty of time, 

guys. 

PLENTY OF TIME. 

 

I sat there with 

my entire self 

.

+ YOU 

KNOW WHAT. 

 

I was genuinely fine. 

.

music: Complicated (cover)

by Postmodern Jukebox 

ft. Annie Bosko

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20.3.20

despite all of it, 

MAJOR 

BREAKTHROUGHS 

took place. 

 

RANDOM

meetings

were supposed

to be.

.

 

HOW 

can we act as 

 

A PART

of nature, 

 

rather than 

 

being 

APART 

from it. 

.

 

ONCE 

they had let go 

of fear, 

 

their consciousness 

UPLEVELLED 

to a whole new 

dimension.  

 

CAN YOU

believe it.

.

music: Return to Love

by Kevin Kern

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18.3.20

the air smelled 

AS IF 

I was falling 

IN LOVE. 

.

 

what are all 

the assumptions 

we’re making 

about each other. 

 

ARE THEY TRUE. 

.

 

how am I 

CONTRIBUTING to 

the energetic state 

of this world. 

.

 

how do we 

 

move through 

STAGNATION. 

.

music: Spirit Bird

by Xavier Rudd

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17.3.20

the silence was 

SOMEWHAT 

heavier today. 

 

AS IF

it had swallowed 

a lot of noise. 

 

the transition between 

sleep + BEING AWAKE 

 

was filled with 

UNWANTED dreams. 

.

 

his voice had a tone 

of casual entitlement 

to being right. 

 

even in his dementia. 

.

+ I REALISED, 

that he would never 

wake up to the fact, 

 

that he was a 

FULL ON expression of 

 

patriarchy + privilege, 

 

because in his reality 

it was common sense. 

 

maybe he would 

in another life. 

 

WHO KNOWS. 

(anything really) 

.

music: 'Left-Hand Path'

by Clubroot

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16.3.20

we’ve got this. 

DON’T WE. 

I mean, 

comefuckingon. 

.

 

strength. 

stamina. 

confidence. 

 

she tried the words 

OUT IN HER HEAD. 

 

they sounded more 

like the echo of past 

affirmations 

than her current self. 

 

on the other hand 

HIGHLY ATTRACTIVE, 

those words. 

 

so WTF. 

.

music: Halo

by Lotte Kestner

.

15.3.20

the sky is 

BLUE + OPEN. 

 

if I could 

give it to you, 

I would,

SWEETHEART. 

 

sitting with all 

what is + being 

OK. 

 

coming home 

TO THE SELF

amidst the mess. 

 

IT’S JUST

 

one 

of these lives. 

 

THE SOUL

whispered. 

 

EARTH 

trying to 

self-regulate.

 

CAN YOU

blame her. 

 

is this the 

roaring twenties 

/ WHAT. 

.

music: A Sky Full Of Stars (cover)

by Chase Eagleson

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12.3.20

CONNECTION 

is built from 

a place of 

HONESTY. 

 

including 

the one to 

MY SELF. 

 

they gathered 

around the 

FIRE + creativity 

was flowing freely. 

 

full presence 

of SPIRIT. 

 

.

ohmygod 

what are 

we doing 

PEOPLE. 

ohmygod. 

.

music: Vagina

by Alaska Thunderfuck

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10.3.20

WHAT ARE ALL 

the other thoughts 

I could CULTIVATE 

 

instead of the ones 

CONSTANTLY 

repeating in my head. 

 

do I really need to 

RE-DISCUSS all 

of this. 

 

to what extent 

will I let things 

OVERFLOW 

 

until I grasp 

the necessity for 

CHANGE. 

 

how long does it 

take me to make it. 

.

 

+ ISN’T MY BODY 

telling me 

long before I know. 

.

music: Medicine Chant

by Anilah

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8.3.20

if only what 

I see + hear 

 

of the outside 

WORLD

 

becomes part 

of my reality, 

 

I have a certain 

CHOICE 

to shape it. 

 

sometimes 

I lose interest 

IN ENGAGING

 

with her all 

together, 

 

because 

YOU KNOW

 

the outside world, 

she can be 

A BIT MUCH. 

.

7.3.20

they were 

 

MATCHING 

stories. 

SHARING 

insights. 

THINKING 

together. 

OFFERING 

the full truth. 

 

sometimes 

we need each other 

to believe in our 

WORK + EXISTENCE. 

.

 

every time 

I tell that story 

I can let go of it 

a little bit more.

.

music: Look Around

by Elise Davis

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6.3.20

establishing 

A SENSE OF SELF

amidst the mess. 

.

MORE being 

our selves. 

 

LESS producing 

our selves. 

 

MORE 

doing the work. 

 

LESS 

judgement of it. 

.

TRUSTING 

that there is a path. 

 

EVEN IF

it is invisible. 

unpredictable. 

 

SEEMINGLY 

non-existent. 

.

ISN’T THAT 

so much 

of what life is. 

.

music: Écoute chérie

by Vendredi sur Mer

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5.3.20

the difference between 

 

LETTING SOMEONE COME 

into your home + going 

into someone’s home. 

 

SEE, 

this is why 

we should be talking 

about INVITATION 

rather than consent. 

 

THERE ARE THE PEOPLE 

who wait for an invitation. 

THERE ARE THE PEOPLE 

who ask for an invitation. 

 

THERE ARE THE PEOPLE 

who invite themselves 

in + make you feel like 

you’ve invited them. 

 

THERE ARE THE PEOPLE 

who feel an astonishing 

level of entitlement to enter 

(+ do so on their terms). 

 

PERSONALLY, 

I’m guilty of 

NOT SLAMMING THE DOOR

in someone’s face, 

 

screaming 

GO FUCK YOURSELF

from the top of my lungs, 

 

when I should have. 

.

music: Chaleur humaine

by Christine and the Queens

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4.3.20

laziness 

resulting 

from lack of 

PURPOSE. 

 

whatever 

THAT MEANS

 

(to your situation). 

.

thoughts hit me 

like raindrops 

 

the moment 

I WOKE UP. 

 

words, 

TOO, 

are energy, 

carry energy.

 

have potential 

POWER 

TO CHANGE

the world. / sth 

along those lines. 

 

she couldn’t resist 

the FLASHBACKS. 

.

+ ISN’T THAT, 

what the mind 

is teasing us with.

.

music: Uf em Hügel

by Linard Bardill

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3.3.20

the moment 

 

I said it, 

I KNEW 

I was lying. 

 

MOSTLY 

to myself. 

 

WHAT IF

it is a necessity 

at times. 

.

/ maybe 

I was sick 

of justifying 

my approach 

TO LIFE. 

 

ride the highways 

of your energy + then 

let the energy ride you. 

 

PLENTY of time. 

plenty OF TIME.

.

music: Time

by Fascinating Aïda

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