DETACHMENT

you’re teaching me to not get involved with the drama of life,

to not IDENTIFY with what I do, what I feel, what I have.

the thing is,

my soul is having a HUMAN EXPERIENCE on this earth.

to be HUMAN means,

I do ATTACH

to people, places, things,

TO WHAT I DO.

I will feel hurt,

because I’m VULNERABLE.

let me have the experience,

instead of me suppressing emotions,

letting my coping-mechanisms override

all I FEEL.

to feel

LOST, REJECTED,

UNPROTECTED..

all belongs to being human.

so do LOVE + JOY

on the other side of the spectrum.

‘you’re very good at taking physical pain, not so much at taking emotional pain. but you can’t avoid that, LIVING LIFE means, that you will be hurt again and will have to learn how to deal with that’,

my support AK told me many years ago.

well, it’s still true, I notice though.

I notice how I immediately suppress all reaction and shut myself down when I get hurt.

I notice how I get upset about that.

I try to sit with the emotions and deal with them

through PRACTICE.

through WRITING.