12.8.20

I MISS. 

 

I MISS HOME

despite the knowing of it 

as a place within me. 

 

I miss the ocean 

+ me naked in it, 

free from all else. 

 

I miss everything 

I am not anymore 

+ YET

wouldn’t want to change 

WHO I AM TODAY.

I MISS

the stubborn version of me 

I had to let go of 

for the sake of my own sanity. 

I MISS

the tiny version of me 

on a mission to clean stones 

not knowing about 

war, abuse, injustice, violence. 

 

I miss all of the places 

+ YET

wouldn’t want to be anywhere 

but here. 

 

I MISS YOU

smiling at me 

AS IF

I was the greatest creation of all. 

( + maybe I am. + maybe we all are. ) 

 

I miss moments 

never to occur again 

while MY FUTURE SELF 

is already missing this moment 

in this exact place 

with this exact version of me.  

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music: self-produced

by Julia Kannewischer

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