what if.
what is.
IS NOT.
+ what we
(thought)
will be.
MIGHT NEVER.
/ could possibly.
ALMOST EVER.
(occur)
to be.
not as we.
.
NOT AS WE.
(occur)
to be.
almost ever.
/ could possibly.
might never.
WILL BE.
+ what we
(thought)
is not.
WHAT IS.
what if.
.
WHAT IF.
.
sound: If you want to say something / I don’t know what you mean / If you are there by Richard There
.
the transition into autumn
was BY NO MEANS
a soft one,
but rather a sudden
(ALMOST unexpected)
change,
which matched her
INSIDE STORIES well.
.
WELL,
self-reflection
dove into
NEW DEPTHS.
.
+ distractions hit
themselves IN THE FACE,
thus evaporated naturally.
.
letting go of the summer
had been a harsh process.
but also one,
which left her sitting in
CALMNESS + SOLITUDE.
.
slowly adjusting to
the cold + darkness.
.
PLEASE,
let my bones
be strong enough
TO WALK ME THROUGH
this season.
.
music: Autumn Leaves by Scott Holmes
.
WELL-BEING defined as
the ability to move between
ENGAGING + DISENGAGING
(in an activity).
CONNECTING + DISCONNECTING.
.
to move between
CYCLES OF EMOTIONS.
.
+ to see all the other
MOVING PEOPLE.
.
+ to sometimes
synchronize rhythms.
.
OPPOSED TO
getting stuck
in a static position.
.
HOW DO WE MAKE
THAT HAPPEN.
how do I move
INTO + OUT of connection.
how do I move
into + out of an emotion.
.
application to (movement)
PRACTICE:
how do I move
into + out of a place.
(opposed to focusing on
the end-form of the place only.).
.
music: I Don't Want to Know by PLANET WARDO
.
+ I let go.
of all that
weighs me down.
+ I let go.
of all that
holds me back from
BEING MY BEST SELF.
(what does that
really mean).
+ I let go.
from the very
CORE of me.
+ I let go.
of all that blurs
CLEAR VISION.
+ I let go.
to CREATE SPACE
within me.
+ I let go.
what has been
FORGIVEN long ago.
+ I let go.
of what is no longer
acceptable to hold onto.
+ I watch all that
clutter FLOW AWAY.
.
music: Let it go by J Hacha de Zola
.
BODY. I love you.
for what you are.
.
thighs.
I love you.
stomach.
I LOVE YOU.
eyes.
I love you.
armpits.
I love you.
feet.
I love you.
WOMB.
I love you.
knees.
I love you.
.
BODY. I love you.
for what you are.
.
sorry if I ever made you
feel any other way.
.
music: Bring My Flowers Now by Tanya Tucker
.
let me hold you,
LITTLE GIRL,
+ tell you,
that you’re safe.
.
I KNOW,
it feels like yet the same.
inside out + total shame.
but you are not to blame.
.
to yourself STAY TRUE.
+ it will break you through.
.
KIDS.
DON’T PLAY WITH FIRE.
.
music: Wolf Like Me (feat. Shovels & Rope) by Lera Lynn
.
what we should be.
+ what we shouldn’t be.
how we should act.
+ how we shouldn’t act.
vs.
I AM.
I ACT.
from a place of
INTEGRITY
where I am truly me.
.
in that perspective,
how do we RELATE
to each other.
.
what information is
FEEDING into
that relation.
.
+ DO WE HAVE TO DEFINE THAT.
(yes, let’s name it, cause society taught us to.)
vs.
I AM.
I ACT.
from a place of
INTEGRITY
where I am truly me.
.
music: Hey Mister by PLANET WARDO
.
brains are washed.
circadian rhythms
DISRUPTED.
POOR endocrine system,
I know,
you’re trying hard
+ yet have no chance.
to balance.
screens can’t be avoided.
we got ourselves into
A MESS here,
didn’t we.
.
+ HOW is your
internet addiction doing?
.
music: Gull Song by Thorn and Shout
.
INTUITIVELY
she wanted
to take that
chance to run.
+ let everything
SHE BUILT
fall into pieces.
.
+ honestly,
who would have
CARED?
.
sound: improvised text on
the feeling of
RUNNING AWAY
.
meet.
teach.
heal.
EACH OTHER.
.
exchange
is crucial.
.
you went
MISSING
in the swing of
word constellations.
.
sound: Memorable Monologue: Small Talk by TheEllenShow
.
it is very much
OF HUMAN NATURE
to define
what we see
the way
we believe
IT IS.
.
what if there is
NO SUCH THING
as definition.
are we lost now.
/ (mind-) FUCKED.
/ do we just
ignore that possibility of
UNDEFINITION.
.
music: L'amore non esiste by Fabi Silvestri Gazzè
.
where are all the
PEOPLE.
where is all the
COMPASSION.
where do
WE MEET.
where
ARE YOU.
.
what needs to happen
(in the world).
HOW do we
facilitate that.
.
do I show up for
what I was
CALLED TO DO.
/ am I about
TO RUN AGAIN.
.
should I stay.
/ should I go.
.
music: D'Heimat by Bligg
.
it is probably true,
that there’s no reason
to WORRY
about the things we
CAN’T CHANGE.
.
+ SO
she was left
to re-arrange.
TO LET GO
what had to go.
to re-establish
a SENSE OF SELF.
.
life was somewhat
DULL.
.
+ yet
she kept
LIVING it,
pretending it wasn’t.
.
with her mind
ALL OVER THE PLACE.
.
except for here.
.
music: Melanie
.
when no one
HOLDS ME,
my practice does.
.
when no one
SEES ME,
my practice does.
.
when nothing
MAKES SENSE,
my practice does.
.
when no one
’s HERE,
my practice is.
.
when no one
LISTENS,
my practice does.
.
when I don’t
UNDERSTAND,
my practice does.
.
+ sometimes that’s all
I can count on
IN LIFE.
.
all I can be
SURE about.
.
+ all I know.
.
am I attached
to my practice?
SURE THING.
.
let me tell you,
that’s more
SUSTAINABLE,
than being
attached to
PEOPLE.
.
VIDEO SPED UP 2.5x
.
going to END RANGES
of motion.
spending some time
there in DISCOMFORT.
strengthening
that place.
.
+ then
EASING BACK
into my comfort-zone.
/ how to widen
THE SPECTRUM
of movement possibilities.
.
how does that
APPLY TO LIFE.
.
sound: reading notes on stretching
.
it was a
CLASSIC EXAMPLE
of how
LIFE MET HER.
stories kept
repeating themselves.
.
at the same time
new narratives
were written.
.
POTENTIALLY
life is about
FILTERING OUT
the stories
you intend
to live through
in CYCLES repeatedly
+ releasing the rest.
.
+ HOW DO YOU DO THAT.
.
TELL ME all about
not understanding
myself.
.
music: Et S'il Fallait Le Faire by Patricia Kaas
.
+ maybe
LETTING GO
is a process
on all levels.
an ALL-INCLUSIVE
BUSINESS.
+ maybe
things are
NO COINCIDENCE.
+ maybe
it all makes sense.
+ maybe
nature reacts
on energies.
+ maybe
the body
KNOWS MORE
than the mind.
.
WHO KNOWS
.
.
music: Wenn I Doch … by Maozinha
.
a RUSH.
a GLANCE.
a TOUCH.
a DANCE.
.
+ other lyrics echoing
through the late
SUMMER NIGHT air.
.
+ just for a moment
RIGHT THERE
the silhouette of your profile
in the light of the setting sun
was my favourite VIEW.
no picture
no situation
was ever
RE-OCCURRING.
+ yet
some of them
stayed with her
for eternities.
ARE YOU WITH ME.
ARE YOU WITH ME.
.
music: Are You With Me by Suzan & Freek
.
UNIVERSAL constellation
changing through
any movement.
+ what does it mean
TO YOU.
.
FREE MINDS
are hardly ever so
IN ANY
given moment.
+ what does it mean
TO YOU.
.
feeling the back body
changes all
PERCEPTION.
+ what does it mean
TO YOU.
.
.
+ OTHER TALKS.
.
.
all the
CONVERSATIONS
(with you)
IN MY HEAD.
if they were true.
(true + true to you,
too).
MISCONCEPTIONS
were shed.
.
COURAGE
+ BLAMAGE.
[!french accent!]
are closely related.
OH, WHAT A DRAMAGE.
.
+ all the clowns
IN THE CORNER
were laughing
/ crying / both.
no worries,
their MAQUILLAGE
was water-proof.
.
music: Send In the Clowns by Judy Collins
.
