RECOGNISING
ones privilege
is the first step
to INCLUSION.
including the self
+ then including
the others,
so we can be
ALL-INCLUSIVE.
.
music: One Little Soldier
by Regina Spektor
.
13.12.19
simply put:
I just don’t care.
(about you).
(right now).
/ in other words:
FUCK YOU.
.
she vomited
ALL OF HER RAGE
out into the silence
of nobody listening.
.
there is a reason
it is also called
making love.
.
+ IF
it is not the slightest
bit about that,
SHE NOTED
to herself,
don’t allow it
to happen,
it comes at
too great costs.
.
music: Nackt sehen
by UNS
.
12.12.19
YOU NEVER
KNOW.
YOU NEVER
KNOW,
what a person
brings with them.
YOU NEVER
KNOW,
what someone
is going through.
YOU NEVER
KNOW,
how a person
feels in their body.
YOU NEVER
KNOW.
how can I
HOLD SPACE
for people to be
with all of it.
what kind of
PRACTICE
facilitates
enough space
for anyone sharing it.
.
music: Toi + moi
by Grégoire
.
11.12.19
the way you moved
REMINDED ME
of an old friend,
which instantly
made me feel
connected.
.
+ MAYBE
we just crossed paths
for that very reason.
.
+ MAYBE
we just were to meet
to re-assure each other’s
existence.
.
+ MAYBE
you just came into my life
to make me think of her.
.
+ MAYBE
we just needed to have
that one meaningful
conversation a day,
that one proper hug,
that one real smile.
.
KNOW,
that I see you.
KNOW,
that you make
a difference.
.
music: Feuer
by Jan Delay
.
10.12.19
the quality
with which we
CULTIVATE
the dialogue with
ourselves + each other
is what translates
DIRECTLY into
our environment.
how can we
pursue a conversation
of KINDNESS +
LISTENING.
YOU SEE,
BRUTALITY
JUST ISN’T
SEXY.
I don’t know,
who taught you
it is, but it never is.
.
music: Sibambaneni
by Kindness
.
9.12.19
what is
CULTURALLY
appropriate + what is
INDUVIDUALLY
appropriate might
not be the same,
but surely related in
how any situation is
PERCEIVED + understood.
(as we are raised
in a certain culture
with certain values).
HOWEVER,
the degree of
ENTITLEMENT
you guys at times feel
to randomly touch us
LIKE DOLLS
astonishes me
AGAIN + AGAIN.
.
music: boundaries
by Lena
.
8.12.19
+ IF
I’m a victim,
then only of
my own
THOUGHTS.
as much as
I ACKNOWLEDGE
the past,
I can’t allow it
to define
my current reality,
CAN I.
how to
REWRITE
the stories
I’ve been
telling myself.
whose words
are those
ANYWAYS.
.
the correlation
BETWEEN
writing + video
might be invisible,
but there
INDEED EXISTS
a strong one.
.
7.12.19
UNI VERSES
fell
A PART.
others
were built.
WE
amidst all of it.
if we were
to understand
those constant
FLUCTUATIONS
as crucial for
the general
EXISTENCE,
the process
of letting
GO
WOULD BE
a logical consequence,
a necessity even.
.
music: Moin Bumm Tschack
by Fünf Sterne Deluxe
.
6.12.19
what I thought
I’d processed +
COME TO PEACE
with
my body
might cover,
but not lie
about its
PRESENCE.
what does
DOING
YOUR WORK
mean to you.
CAUSE REALLY
it is just about
what it means
TO YOU.
NO,
I’m not sponsored.
I just have a
VERY LITTLE NUMBER
of clothes
at the moment.
.
music: Ordinary People
(feat. Jilian Linklater)
by Aaron Espe
.
5.12.19
that moment
I REALISE
my mind is
telling me
A LIE.
because
it was
TRAINED
to do so
FOR YEARS.
4.12.19
to
UNCONDITIONALLY
love my body
for all it is
in
ANY STATE.
what a
REBELLIOUS ACT.
LIKE WOW.
how hard is that.
how much further
there is to go.
+ what a privilege.
.
music: The Wind Cries Mary
by Jimi Hendrix
.
3.12.19
OFC
it was frightening
to see my cells
like that + me
in them.
OFC
it was worrisome
to hear about
TOXICITY.
I was scared
to my bones,
LIKE LITERALLY.
.
+ was left to ask
myself how I could
EXPAND
from this place.
2.12.19
NO.
all of her said.
.
+ he didn’t
take it seriously.
NO.
all of her said.
.
+ he didn’t
even hear it.
GET THE FUCK
OUT OF HERE.
is what she should
have been shouting,
instead of retreating
into herself.
.
music: Look Around
by Elise Davis
.
1.12.19
it is time
TO STOP
feeling guilty
for what is not
my responsibility.
to stop
making excuses
for what aren’t
my faults.
to stop
APOLOGISING
for who I am.
.
music: Body (Live)
by Flo & Joan
.
30.11.19
most of the things
I DO IN LIFE
I do by myself.
I understand
WHAT A PRIVILEGE
this can be.
sometimes
INDEPENDENCE
is my greatest good.
about
THE FREEDOM
of not having to
JUSTIFY
my existence.
.
music: You Don't Own Me
by Masquer
.
29.11.19
the ghosts trapped
in the wall
LEFT HESITANTLY
after I told them to,
since there was
no need for them
HERE.
were they stupid /
WHAT.
they didn’t seem
to get it.
OH,
it was so annoying,
all the noise
they made.
.
ELVIS gave her
an empathetic smile.
don’t you worry,
HON,
we’re leaving
this place very soon.
.
music: Elvis Sails,
Press Interview
With Elvis Presley
.
28.11.19
the child
WITHIN ME
is not
an easy one
TO RAISE.
possibly
growing up
is an illusion
IN THIS CASE.
.
+ so I’m patiently
DISILLUSIONED
+ mother
that little girl
to my best abilities
– most of the time(s).
.
music: Little Flo & Joan (Live)
by Flo & Joan
.
27.11.19
BEAUTY, he said.
I see it like a talent.
.
to let people come
VERY CLOSE + YET
keep them distant.
.
to give everything.
but nothing away.
.
music: Golden Embers
by Mandolin Orange
.
26.11.19
when we take
things
PERSONALLY,
the drama
happens.
.
+ MOSTLY
in the head (space).
.
ABOUT love,
the following thing
PEOPLE:
if possible
I prefer
to fall in love
with myself,
cause that’s mutual.
but then, yes,
I can love all of you,
TOO.
.
music: Exit Music
(For a Film)
by Amanda Palmer
.
25.11.19
SOME
hugs have exactly
the right amount of
PRESSURE
+ SUSPENSION
of time.
SOME
conversations
ERASE TIME
completely.