SHE
sat herself down.
TO DRWON
in thought.
of all she fought.
FOR.
AGAINST.
WITH.
.
peace of mind.
+ grace we’ll find.
when resistance releases.
when tension eases.
so that all
I FALL
for.
is the current moment.
.
which might sound
plain + fluid,
but at times is
SO FUCKING HARD
to do.
at least for me,
don’t know about
YOU,
sweetest of all hearts.
.
music: High and Dry
by Amanda Palmer
.
THIS YEAR
is going to be
a great one for
ME.
all of us thought.
as every year.
YOU KNOW WHAT.
it probably is,
if you think so
EVERY SINGLE DAY
of it.
sometimes
TRANSITIONS
are as short as
the blink of an eye.
.
YOU CAN SAY
many things about
my brother.
one of them being,
that he knows
which songs to play
to get me
singing + dancing
ALL NIGHT LONG.
CELEBRATING
being exactly
WHO I AM.
.
music: Girls Just Wanna
Have Fun - Cyndi Lauper
(ukulele cover)
by Reneé Dominique
.
I don’t know, what
FINDING MY VOICE
really means.
I do however feel
SOMEWHAT CLOSER.
.
the further I age,
the more I understand
how little I know
+
how much more there is
to LEARN.
to HEAL.
to WORK ON.
(considering
human existence.)
2019, IF ANYTHING
you’ve shown me
the power of consistency.
THANK YOU
for giving me the courage
to let flow through me,
what needs to be
VOICED + EXPRESSED.
PRACTICE / practices
have carried me through
the darkest times
of you, 2019.
(cause we both know,
you weren’t easy on me.)
thank you
FOR THE PEOPLE
you’ve put
on my path,
who’ve supported me,
fuelled me, hugged me,
MADE ME LAUGH,
listened + understood.
thank you
for teaching me
to slow down.
.
YOU,
YES YOU
being the one reading this:
KNOW
that you are whole.
KNOW
that you are loved.
KNOW
that you do matter.
.
music: She
by Marianne Faithfull
.
LOVING PEOPLE
for what they do,
what they say,
how they look.
VERSUS
loving people
for the beauty
OF THEIR SOULS.
all love is valid.
but BOY,
is the soul-stuff
intense.
.
let’s call it a
split variation.
just because
I CAN.
.
music: Wicked Game
by Tula
.
the FAMILIARITY.
the no-awkwardness
WHATSOEVER.
the genuine comfort.
like WOW.
just threw me
slightly off.
ALL OF ME
reacting accordingly.
oh DEAR.
don’t you look at me
like that, Elvis.
.
music: You Were
Always On My Mind
by Jack Savoretti
.
art is
WHAT IT DOES
with you.
KUNSCHT ISCH
was es
MIT DER MACHT.
the artist is
the one to
FACILITATE
the space for
this process
to take place.
whicheverone
it is
you need to
LIVE THROUGH
on any give day.
ALSO:
having a conversation
is sound improvisation.
THANKS
for improvising
with me today.
.
+ we need
to create more
spaces, where
ALL PEOPLE are
just people
AS SUCH.
.
sound:
Johanna Kannewischer
+ Julija Gjorgjieva
.
as the
NEW MOON
ROSE
we prepared
ourselves
to go off into
new life situations
+ left the rest
BEHIND.
our systems were
CLEANSED,
our thoughts
SIMPLIFIED.
+ I SAW ALL CLEAR.
.
music: J'ai demandé à la lune
by Vox Angeli
.
am I really
SEEING YOU.
of course I do.
is this really
GOING DOWN.
of course it is.
stumbling, crumbling,
ROLLING
through days
which stretch into
one big tea time.
cause you know,
I’m a tea person.
I’ll just hand that
OUT THERE.
the frustrating
inability
TO EXCHANGE
ALL
of the stories.
.
camera/sound/support:
Sebastian Kannewischer
Johanna Kannewischer
Constantin Kannewischer
.
THANK YOU
most amazing gang.
.
where there is
HUMANNESS,
there is confrontation.
where there is
HUMANNESS,
there are mis(s)takes.
where there is
HUMANNESS,
there are flaws.
.
+ YET
each one of us
carries a soul,
which is whole
as it is.
CONNECTION TO SPIRIT
is not to be accomplished
/ to be received.
it simply asks me
TO LISTEN WITHIN.
.
music: Us Mänsch (feat. Marc Sway)
by Bligg
.
divinity is
LOVE.
LOVE
is everywhere.
I was taught,
when I asked
who god was.
.
+ for a long time
LITTLE ME thought,
that all people
were taught
the same by
their mothers.
WHAT IF
they were.
.
music: The Gospel of Mary
by Josh Ritter &
The Milk Carton Kids
.
sometimes
I need
SISTERHOOD
to name things
I don’t fully
ACKNOWLEDGE
myself.
sometimes
I need her
TO SPEAK UP
for me + reflect
my truth at me
in order to
UNDERSTAND.
cause sometimes
SHE HEARS
the whispers
of my heart clearer
than I do.
.
music: It's Alright (Live)
by Flo & Joan
.
you are safe now,
she kept repeating
TO HERSELF
as the pictures visited
upon awaking.
+ IF I am not
screaming into the walls
of that church,
WHO IS.
cause someone
sure has to.
god was actually
THE GOOD
(in all people).
YEAH, history,
you got that one wrong.
.
SHE LEFT
home + she came
HOME.
she had many,
YOU SEE.
mostly
I’m coming home
to myself.
home is a
PRACTICE.
.
music: Straight Outta Vagina
by Pussy Riot
.
21.12.19 AVE MARIA
A WORLD,
in which prayer is
inclusive of all people.
A WORLD,
in which no institution
is needed for believing
in the good.
A WORLD,
in which who I am
matters more
than what I have /
what I look like.
A WORLD,
which yet has to be
created.
BY US PEOPLE.
Gegrüsst seist du, Maria,
voll der Gnade,
der Herr ist mit dir.
Du bist gebenedeit unter den Frauen,
und gebenedeit ist die Frucht deines Leibes, Jesus.
Heilige Maria, Mutter Gottes,
bitte für uns Sünder
jetzt und in der Stunde unseres Todes.
Amen.
Ave Maria,
gratia plena,
Dominus tecum.
Benedicta tu in mulieribus,
et benedictus fructus ventris tui, Iesus.
Sancta Maria, Mater Dei,
ora pro nobis peccatoribus
nunc et in hora mortis nostrae.
Amen.
Hallo Maria,
Du, wo voller Mitgfühl bisch,
und s Göttliche i Der treisch.
Du bisch gsägnet unter üs,
und gsägnet isch, was Du erschaffsch.
Heiligi Maria, Muetter vo allem Göttliche,
heb üs Mänsche
jetzt und wemmer gönd.
I aller Liebi.
I did let you
COME too close.
on all levels.
I FORGIVE MYSELF
for not recognising
that early enough.
I FORGIVE YOU
for not recognising,
because you might
be hypersensitive,
but not necessarily
EMPATHIC
for anyone else than
yourself.
which apparently
I expected of you.
SORRY,
I was wrong.
FORGIVENESS
sets me free.
CIAO.
.
music: Let It Go (Frozen
- Idina Menzel Cover)
by Mimi Pacardo
.
TO BE IN THE FLOW
does not indicate
any specific speed.
MAYBE
the magic happens,
when we flow slower.
it creates
SPACE + TIME
to align the body.
ALL ELSE
naturally follows.
.
music: Jolene
by Piotr Lisiecki
.
LIFE IS
only what we
make of it.
BEINGS LEAVE
traces on the walls
of our realms.
you can as well
throw that stuff
AWAY,
it is not going
TO REPLACE
the people you
leave behind.
.
another era
came to an end.
SHE
was fully aware
of being amidst
the process of
LETTING GO
in order to
TRANSITION
into
a new chapter.
+ YET
it took her
like a storm.
dear humanness
of mine,
I SEE YOU.
we’ve got this,
OK.
.
music: Daylight (improvised cover)
by Michel Schwarzkopf
.
MAYBE
rage was in fact
BITTER
disappointment.
it isn’t
WISE
to expect as much
of others as of myself
– the barre is high.
ALSO:
yes, give all.
as long
as you can handle
not getting the same
ENERGETIC INVESTMENT
back.
.
I looked at the horizon,
the sky was blue,
THE AIR MILD.
.
.
+ I SAW ALL CLEAR.
.
music: F**k Your Accent
by Bonaparte
.
SOMETIMES
it is not about
stating my
boundaries,
but about
stating them
CLEAR ENOUGH
to be taken
seriously.
(in relation to
OTHERS + MYSELF).
… women
all over the world
realised,
phrasing everything
OH SO CAUTIOUSLY,
cause that’s how they
were socialised.
…
hey julia,
was machsch du
eigentlich so.
– hauptbrueflich
komischi videos
uf soschal midia
poste + DU SO.
.
music: Les feuilles mortes
by Juliette Gréco
.
emotional intelligence.
(like WOW. what a word).
it comes more
from the gut,
YOU SEE.
it is those things
we can’t fully
COMPREHEND
in the head-space.
it contains empathy,
compassion, listening
(among other stuff).
SO all the things
patriarchy is not
teaching us.
cause if it would,
it would lose its
POWER
(to,
OH DEAR ME,
all of those witches
who carry these traits
in their wombs
EXCLAMATION MARK,
SCREAMING
HALF-BLUE EMOJI.).
.
music: Ta reine
by Angèle
.
