as
the perception
of TIME
slowed down,
time passed
even faster.
.
+ I was not
ready for that.
.
the energetic
shifts through
THESE TIMES
had been
tremendous
AT TIMES.
.
what about
this time,
DEAR LIFE
of mine.
.
I witnessed
UNCERTAINTY.
I witnessed
FEAR.
I witnessed
PAIN.
.
but
kept my vision
high above it all.
.
looking for
CLARITY.
.
music: Clarity
(cover)
by Sam Tsui &
Kurt Hugo Schneider
.
the birds
were mean
to each other.
CLEARLY
not appreciating
the LUXURY
of a life-partner.
MEANWHILE
I was bathing
myself
in isolation.
writing
INSIGNIFICANT
sentences about
birds
being mean
to each other.
CLEARLY
not appreciating
the LUXURY
of a life-partner.
.
re
TREATING
myself.
.
music: Free Falling
(cover)
by Athens Creek
.
CULTIVATING
a sustainable
exchange
with the ground.
SHARING ENERGY.
both
equally nurtured.
seeing
through the lens
of unconditional
LOVE
for life itself.
understanding
the body
as a concept
of WHOLENESS.
.
+ THEN
grounding down
AGAIN.
.
music: I Could Have Been
by Mad Hatter's Daughter
.
THE BEAUTY
of the outside world
was
profoundly touching.
what about
our inside worlds.
.
+ the significance
OF US CARING
for them.
.
the understanding
QUALITY
of a properly
enfolding hug.
.
+ other things
I dreamt about.
.
music: Fat Faded F**k Face
by Die Antwoord
.
empty
INTERACTION.
who am I
when all of it
falls away.
I wasn’t sure,
whether
MY VOICE
was still working
TBH.
.
spring
CAME + I
wanted to fall
IN LOVE
so badly.
.
music: Where Have
All The Flowers Gone
(Pete Seeger Tribute)
by Joan Baez
.
I had let you in.
YOU TOOK ALL
you could,
pushed me
down the stairs
of my own cellar
+ left smiling
DISGUSTINGLY.
.
his fucking face
haunted her
through the night,
evoking anxiety.
SHAME.
+ RAGE.
SO. MUCH.
RAGE.
.
how to let go of
what can’t be
UNDONE.
how do live with
what can’t be
MADE OK.
some nights
I can’t deal
with this kind of
DEPLETION.
today I can’t detach
from personal drama.
I’M SORRY.
.
music: Sinfonia in D Major,
RV 125: II. Adagio
by Accademia dell'Annunciata
& Riccardo Doni
.
AM I STILL
making sense.
what are all
the stories
coming up
IN THE FACE
of stillness.
has there been
a POTENTIAL
leakage
of energy.
how
DO WE GO ON
from here.
(where do
I belong).
do you
STILL SEE ME
the same way
as you did
a decade ago
+ if so,
could you
REFRAME
that idea
of me, PLS.
AM I STILL
making sense.
ARE WE LOST
now.
.
music: The Best
(cover)
by Citizens!
.
it is impossible
to run away
from the past.
it is possible
HOWEVER
to set myself free
from it. / SO
I hoped. + went
through
ANOTHER CYCLE
of processing.
releasing.
forgiving myself.
.
YOU KNOW WHAT.
what,
HE asked.
I don’t even
want to go there
ANYMORE.
it’s so exhausting.
.
music: Retrograde
(cover)
by Sierra Eagleson
.
the world
will never
be the same
AGAIN.
.
+ MAYBE
this is progress.
however severe
the personal
DRAMA is.
COLLECTIVELY
it might be
a chance
to RETHINK
the sustainability
of our structures.
.
FEAR
is not
an acceptable
place to settle.
.
REFINE
your listening.
.
music: a poem
about saying yes
by IN-Q
.
strengthening
CONNECTION
over distance
consciously.
from a
heart space
SO SOFT.
[there’s no cost
to sending love
to each other.
we might as well
make it a habit.]
TRUSTING
the value of the self
never
THE LESS.
AT.
ALL.
TIMES.
are we still here.
can you feel me.
I’M ALL OVER
the fucking place.
.
music: Shake the Dust
by The Sweeplings
.
up levelling
the energetic
STATE.
supporting
the SELF.
clear structure.
soft content.
RE-CALIBRATE.
nourishing habits.
where to do
MORE + MORE
importantly
where to do
LESS.
lifting the self
OUT OF
emotional coma.
DE-COMPRESSION.
.
music: Sweet Apocalypse
by Lambert
.
the world
appeared
so surreal,
IT COULD
as well have
not existed.
.
+ maybe
it didn’t.
.
I lost myself
in thoughts
going near
NOWHERE
at all.
.
I forgot
to remember
whether I was
HERE / NOT.
.
+ IF
I wasn’t,
who would
know.
.
OH DEAR.
let’s not
go there,
OK.
ok,
SURE THING.
sorry.
.
music: Hurt
by Mad Hatter’s
Daughter
.
A CIRCLE
creates equality
between the dots
it is made of.
HOW
does that translate
into
building community.
understanding time.
BODY-LITERACY.
work.
relating to each other.
could we
think more circular.
LESS LINEAR.
in order
to REALIGN
with the womb energy
of mother earth.
.
music: Hips Don’t Lie
(1950s Latin Cover)
by Robyn Adele Anderson
.
THE WORLD
in her absurdity
brought up
all kinds of
questions.
where do I
begin + where
DO YOU END.
she screamed.
.
+ YET
was partially
misunderstood.
.
LEFT TO
an unexpected level
of SELF-REGULATION,
the relation to
space + time
became
UNMEASURABLE.
.
music: Le jour se lève
by Patricia Kaas
.
in the face
of stillness
what
had been hidden
SUR FACES.
in the face
of stillness.
all the ugly
TRUTHS.
buried
EMOTIONS.
long forgotten
DREAMS.
PEOPLE
from the past.
(BOY,
what are you doing
in my subconsciousness.
I mean, comefuckingon).
.
music: Shadow Of The Day
(cover)
by Chase Eagleson
.
the further
I GO,
the less
I KNOW
the outlining
OF THE PATH
I’m walking on.
knowing
to not know.
WHERE
is the lightness
of AGE.
wasn’t this
supposed
to be fun.
THEN AGAIN,
FUN,
what an
alienating concept.
.
music: NO 1
by Die Antwoord
.
SHE
shifted her
APPROACH
to the world
from within + thus
began to see
its MAGIC.
NO ONE
can take this
away from me.
.
+ she went on
with the business
of leading a life
of reckless
IRRATIONALITY.
just like
she had never
been taught
TO DO.
.
music: Lose Yourself
(Gypsy Jazz Cover)
by Adele Anderson
.
AS WE
sat together
on the screen.
SECRETS
were shared.
STORIES
were told.
DREAMS
were drawn
into the dark
of the night.
tea cups
filled + refilled.
my phone
IN BEDTIME MODE
since hours.
we laughed
+ LISTENED
+ contemplated.
as if
we were sitting
around a fire
far away from
the rest of the
WORLD.
maybe
the fire within
OUR HEARTS.
SISTERHOOD
is where I feel
understood.
.
music: Mosaïque
by Ash
.
every morning
the birds are
SCREAMING
at each other.
(flirting comes
in many forms).
the pictures
coming up in
the middle of
THE NIGHT
are not helpful.
THE VIOLENCE
HAS TO STOP.
how are we
supposed to
heal collectively
OTHER WISE.
is this really me.
.
music: In the Light of Love
/ Om Shree Danvantre Namaha
(feat. Manose) [Live]
by Deva Premal & Miten
.
TBH,
I just miss
hanging out
WITH YOU.
pretending
the world is
our playground.
LOOKING UP
at the sun
while we get
our hands dirty.
SINGING.
LAUGHING.
carried by
LIGHTNESS.
.
music: Für Ingwer und Ewig
by Lo & Leduc
.
